The snow across the pain
and the frost upon the heart
(Me on Promised Land Lake)
Teach Your Parents Well ... by Graham Nash*
There are no seven wonders of the world in the eyes of a child. There are seven million.
~Walt Streightiff
*by Nash... :)
~Walt Streightiff
*by Nash... :)
Raven
Animal totems are an interesting thing, we do not always get what we want as a totem. Having more than one is the usual thing. My Native American birth totem that's aligned with the zodiac is the Wolf. (Mohawk in my ancestry.) You find your totems through experiences, both spiritual and mundane, animals will cross your path or appear in your life and your dreams, and you can seek your totem through ceremony and meditation as well. I always knew about my Wolf totem throughout my life, before I looked it up, and it was easy to accept because, hey, wolves are really cool! The Owl has also been ever-present in my life, also an easy-to-accept totem, so majestic and beautiful, wise and mysterious, powerful and stealth. Identifying with Owl is lovely. I love turtles very much also, they have been in my life not just crossing my path but in my house, my yard, whether I am looking for them or not, they exist in my life. So I accepted them as well, even though they're not so "cool", and there is a quite a lot to learn from them.
I have dismissed my personal totem for years, ignoring it, telling myself it's just a coincidence, there is nothing significant about an obnoxious black bird with a huge beak. Dismissing it like an annoying relative, someone you know is attached to you but you don't really want to deal with. In the last half of my life I have slowly come to accept that Raven, not Eagle, not Hawk, not "cool majestic bird that everyone admires" is with me. I don't even know what Raven represents, I have skimmed over Raven's meaning in various texts, and as there is more than one interpretation, I may just wait to ask the Mohawk shaman before I accept it.
So Raven, okay, let's get on with this journey, please forgive my dismissal of your significance, you are actually a magnificent, powerful creature.
side note: I understand that those who don't believe in Spiritual things will see this post as evidence of eccentricity, get over it :P if you are reading this there must be a reason ~ :)
SEVEN BRIDGES ROAD
"The sound of a kiss is much softer than that of a canon - but it's echo lasts a great deal longer."
The Cult- SOUL ASYLUM- NEW
Soul Asylum
Who would break a butterfly on a wheel?
Not me, my precious child
Sweet angel, wrap me in your velvet cloak, my dear
Love's a sweet warm goddess I invited here
So many times I call your name,
So many times I call your name,
Before the night is through
Grant me one last wish
Sweet soul asylum,
An everlasting kiss
Who would crush this woman underfoot?
Ooh, not me, my chosen one
Sweet angel, wrap me in your velvet cloak, my dear
Love's a sweet warm goddess I invited here
So many times I call your name, oh please, baby,
So many times I call your name
Before the night is through
Grant me one last wish
Sweet soul asylum, yeah
An everlasting kiss
Oh oh oh
Takes me far away
So many times I call your name, oh baby, baby, please
So many times I call your name
(Before the night is through)
Before the night is through
(Grant me one last wish)
Oh, grant me one last wish
Sweet soul asylum, yeah
An everlasting kiss
(Before the night is through)
(Grant me one last wish)
Sweet soul asylum, yeah
An everlasting kiss
Sweet soul asylum, yeah
Oh, sweet soul asylum
Sweet soul, yeah
Sweet soul asylum, oh
And the eagle flies with the dove
If you can't be with the one you live, honey, love the one you're with!
Who wrote this, Lucifer?
Doo-doot doot doot doot doot doo-doot!
Integrity isn't "cool" dude yo baby
Idiocracy
Who wrote this, Lucifer?
Doo-doot doot doot doot doot doo-doot!
Integrity isn't "cool" dude yo baby
Idiocracy
Dogs
"Dogs are better than people because they know but don't tell"
Dogs are better than people because they have nothing to hide in the first place.
True freedom ;)
oh yeah and they don't show loyalty and respect to only one gender. Thank God for dogs!
Dogs are better than people because they have nothing to hide in the first place.
True freedom ;)
oh yeah and they don't show loyalty and respect to only one gender. Thank God for dogs!
Inspiration
Thanks to all of my artist friends, you have collectively been an excellent support and inspiration. Artists, musicians, photographers, poets, story tellers, bloggers, senders of inspirational quotes and verses (~R~), etc., I am glad to know you and it is a privilege to read, hear and view your work. I am pretty lucky to be acquainted with so many talented people. It's something I guess we take for granted when things are running smoothly in life, but when the clouds roll in the light from your visions makes all the difference. My smartphone (oops, see below) has lent itself to my making a habit of checking to see if you guys posted anything new whenever I need a kind word. Thanks again all of you talented peeples :) you are much appreciated.
Relegated To Stalker Status!
A friend of mine reported to me recently that my IP address showed up 27 times on her boyfriend's web page... instead of asking me why, she accused me of "stalking" him. My response was "what? What?! How!" and then unbridled giggling at the thought of my stalking her boyfriend... sorry sweetie, I couldn't help it~
We couldn't figure out why my IP address showed up, indeed it looked incriminating. Then I asked her to look at her website, and sure enough, it was there too. I said "Now you know the truth, it's both of you, not just him~!" (To you who take my jokes literally, and I know you're out there, that was a joke, I am not actually stalking anyone.) After much perplexity I think I figured out what the problem is~ it is my fault, alas. I have some terrible internet habits, old patterns put in place when there were only yellow-lettered bulletin boards and connections took forever... if you were lucky. Between working and playing with the early versions of Cyberspace, on the Compaq, the 256, the W320, remember Compuserve Forums?
Remember Eliza?!?
And of course there are the online games, people who don't play don't understand...So I use the back button A LOT, so what... and I hit refresh every 2 seconds when something doesn't load instantaneously...and instead of opening a new page on my phone I go back and forth between already viewed pages... and yes I am click-hyper, that I will own. If there is a link I have not clicked before, even if it is someone's name and I don't know them, it's a link, it might be important, (and it might lead to treasure, a new shield, or platinum, lol)... Sorry already! :) Ignore my IP address on your logs, People! If I were to stalk your boyfriend, I think I would at least try to cover my tracks, use a Proxy Server at the very least, give me some credit. I have too much going on to be paying that much attention to other people.
It actually reminds me of a story... (wanna hear it? :)) A long, long time ago... my ex-boyfriend played guitar in a band (shock, I know). I was not in this particular band. I didn't always go to his shows, he played out quite a bit and I was singing in another act. So there was this girl~ she didn't hide her crush on him very well, it cracked me up. To be insecure about it didn't occur to me; if he wanted her instead I assumed he would just be an adult and tell me, and go be with her, that's what grown-ups do, and he acted as if he had no interest in her and was only interested in me, also he said that. I believed him of course. Why wouldn't I?
One night I stopped by the club he was playing at on my way to practice, just to hear him and say hi to whoever I ran into. I didn't stay long, and he didn't see me, he was onstage. Later I said happily to him, "You sounded great!" He replied "What the hell were you doing there?" I was quite taken aback, why the hell wouldn't I be there? And since when do I need clearance to drop in on my own boyfriend's band, at a club I was familiar with and where there were many friends of mine~ I was confused and upset by his reaction for the longest time. He went into this tirade about how I was "spying" on him and stalking him... ROFL! What an Almond Joy! So dropping by your boyfriend's gig is "spying"... okay. And dropping by unexpectedly is stalking behavior... Sure... In Paranoia Land down on the Severe Ward, Honey! I have been stalked, I know what the definition is. It turned out he had been hanging out with aforementioned girl that night, one of her friends let me know a few days later. Why all the drama, as if I were his mother or something, we weren't even married! Go with the girl, please, if he was interested in someone else why would I want him? I was loyal to him and turned down some really nice guys because of it, and the whole time he was full of it, he wanted to hang onto me and rebel against me at the same time...lots of fun for me, let me tell you (get thee to a shrink Oedipus) So basically I was supposed to live my life around his random whims... Uh-huh... That's what everyone does for all their friends, don't they? Especially if you have more than platonic friendship, you should be even more of a mind-reader and a rug... otherwise you are the one who is unstable... yup, sure!
One thing that is true: people with the capacity to do shady things are the most suspicious of others. My ex-boyfriend would normally have been glad to hear that I was at his show, but he projected his guilt onto me as if I had done the thing that was wrong instead of him. Weird to me how people will flip things to deflect their own guilt or shame, and ruin perfectly good friendships and relationships.
~Of course it does make it easier to sort the Almond Joys from the Mounds... ~:)
We couldn't figure out why my IP address showed up, indeed it looked incriminating. Then I asked her to look at her website, and sure enough, it was there too. I said "Now you know the truth, it's both of you, not just him~!" (To you who take my jokes literally, and I know you're out there, that was a joke, I am not actually stalking anyone.) After much perplexity I think I figured out what the problem is~ it is my fault, alas. I have some terrible internet habits, old patterns put in place when there were only yellow-lettered bulletin boards and connections took forever... if you were lucky. Between working and playing with the early versions of Cyberspace, on the Compaq, the 256, the W320, remember Compuserve Forums?
Remember Eliza?!?
And of course there are the online games, people who don't play don't understand...So I use the back button A LOT, so what... and I hit refresh every 2 seconds when something doesn't load instantaneously...and instead of opening a new page on my phone I go back and forth between already viewed pages... and yes I am click-hyper, that I will own. If there is a link I have not clicked before, even if it is someone's name and I don't know them, it's a link, it might be important, (and it might lead to treasure, a new shield, or platinum, lol)... Sorry already! :) Ignore my IP address on your logs, People! If I were to stalk your boyfriend, I think I would at least try to cover my tracks, use a Proxy Server at the very least, give me some credit. I have too much going on to be paying that much attention to other people.
It actually reminds me of a story... (wanna hear it? :)) A long, long time ago... my ex-boyfriend played guitar in a band (shock, I know). I was not in this particular band. I didn't always go to his shows, he played out quite a bit and I was singing in another act. So there was this girl~ she didn't hide her crush on him very well, it cracked me up. To be insecure about it didn't occur to me; if he wanted her instead I assumed he would just be an adult and tell me, and go be with her, that's what grown-ups do, and he acted as if he had no interest in her and was only interested in me, also he said that. I believed him of course. Why wouldn't I?
One night I stopped by the club he was playing at on my way to practice, just to hear him and say hi to whoever I ran into. I didn't stay long, and he didn't see me, he was onstage. Later I said happily to him, "You sounded great!" He replied "What the hell were you doing there?" I was quite taken aback, why the hell wouldn't I be there? And since when do I need clearance to drop in on my own boyfriend's band, at a club I was familiar with and where there were many friends of mine~ I was confused and upset by his reaction for the longest time. He went into this tirade about how I was "spying" on him and stalking him... ROFL! What an Almond Joy! So dropping by your boyfriend's gig is "spying"... okay. And dropping by unexpectedly is stalking behavior... Sure... In Paranoia Land down on the Severe Ward, Honey! I have been stalked, I know what the definition is. It turned out he had been hanging out with aforementioned girl that night, one of her friends let me know a few days later. Why all the drama, as if I were his mother or something, we weren't even married! Go with the girl, please, if he was interested in someone else why would I want him? I was loyal to him and turned down some really nice guys because of it, and the whole time he was full of it, he wanted to hang onto me and rebel against me at the same time...lots of fun for me, let me tell you (get thee to a shrink Oedipus) So basically I was supposed to live my life around his random whims... Uh-huh... That's what everyone does for all their friends, don't they? Especially if you have more than platonic friendship, you should be even more of a mind-reader and a rug... otherwise you are the one who is unstable... yup, sure!
One thing that is true: people with the capacity to do shady things are the most suspicious of others. My ex-boyfriend would normally have been glad to hear that I was at his show, but he projected his guilt onto me as if I had done the thing that was wrong instead of him. Weird to me how people will flip things to deflect their own guilt or shame, and ruin perfectly good friendships and relationships.
~Of course it does make it easier to sort the Almond Joys from the Mounds... ~:)
Blessings
Hindsight is when you regret mistakes, but also when you fall on your knees thanking God for removing from your life the very thing you were holding onto that was holding you back from your true path.
Today
"Today I try to use the talents God gave me to benefit others. I try to remember that I no longer work for myself."
~thank you
~thank you
All the stars
"It was the time before dawn. In the sky rose a shining moon, it rose and stared at me. it hunted me as the hawk hunts its prey, rising with it into the sky . Rising with me into the heavenly spheres, it drew my soul from its human frame. In that sphere of spiritus, I was blind to all but the moon which bore me upwards.."
~Rumi
~Rumi
What About That?
What do you do if, by the time you find your soulmate/twinflame/mirror... they have been through so much crap that they don't trust the opposite sex anymore, or they seem unglued? What then?
Then you cancel the request and make a new one!
:)
Next question is: what happens if you find your soulmate/twinflame/mirror, and they have been through so much crap that they don't trust the opposite sex anymore, or they seem unglued, and you cancel the request and make a new request to find your very healthy soulmate/twinflame/mirror who is enthusiastic about the friendship between you, and respects you and your boundaries, and is supportive of you, has your back, and is even keeled and fair minded, and strong within him or her self, and has a great sense of humor and is a wonderful partner?
Then you cancel the request and make a new one!
:)
Next question is: what happens if you find your soulmate/twinflame/mirror, and they have been through so much crap that they don't trust the opposite sex anymore, or they seem unglued, and you cancel the request and make a new request to find your very healthy soulmate/twinflame/mirror who is enthusiastic about the friendship between you, and respects you and your boundaries, and is supportive of you, has your back, and is even keeled and fair minded, and strong within him or her self, and has a great sense of humor and is a wonderful partner?
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